Boundaries. The word that gets thrown around like confetti. Even from those who you should actually be setting boundaries with. Now that’s ironic. Toxicity is something that I have known since the minute I took my first breath. Breed into it like some warrior princess. Toxicity and elasticity rhyme. That’s a little ironic too. The… Continue reading Boundaries
Gratefulness It’s Thanksgiving, the time of thanks. Traditions around the dinner table may include saying something you’re grateful for, praying about your thankfulness, or sometimes in my family we put up paper on the walls for everyone to write down what they are thankful for and everyone gets to examine it. This can be uncomfortable,… Continue reading Self Gratitude
Have you ever gripped something so hard that it hurts? Remember as a kid and having the last piece of candy and your brother or sister tries to snatch it out of your hand so you close your grip as hard as possible, you might even swat back at them. “No, it’s mine!” As a… Continue reading Hold On or Let Go
Little Sister, It’s been one hell of a day, hasn’t it? I believe the words you said while we were sitting in those uncomfortable seats at CarMax were, “Can’t anything good happen?” and I think the words, “can’t I catch just one break?” were uttered too. Along with several other phrases that most people use… Continue reading Little Sister: You’re a bad ass bitch
I remember when I was little waiting for you to come and grab my little hands and swing me round and round until you’d let me down so I’d feel so dizzy I could barely walk. And when I was a teen, my friends would crush on you and I’d be so grossed out. You’d… Continue reading Dear Uncle Matt. I Miss You.
September 25, 2017 “Grow through what you go through.” “This is happening to you for a reason. There is a greater purpose here.” “Sunshine comes to all those who feel the rain.” “You’ve survived 100 percent of your worst days.” “The comeback is always stronger than the setback.” How many times have you heard something… Continue reading Fuck The Feel Good Quotes Today
August 9, 2017 This week was tough. I fell into my first full depressive episode since I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder. Being aware of what was happening and not being able to stop the cycle was frustrating to say the least. I have felt it coming for a couple of weeks now, but I… Continue reading Mommas with Mental Illness
Less than 24 hours before I'm in the operating room. After 7 years of ups and downs with Ulcerative Colitis my story is finally coming to an end. I had hoped after the last surgery that my ileostomy would be reversed and I would be able to be "normal" again, but unfortunately my body had… Continue reading Grief, Gratitude and Grace: Chronic Illness
Dear Anxiety, You are a sneaky little bastard, aren't you? For as long as I can remember you have made your way into my life and riddled me in fear. Sometimes your presence is subtle and other times your presence engulfs me and swallows me whole. You love to remind me who is in control. … Continue reading Dear Anxiety: You Will Not Take My Daughter Hostage
Listen, I have a confession to make. I am sometimes a lazy mom.
Introverted personality combined with anxiety and depression and chronic illness have made me more than exhausted or wore down at times. Even at my healthiest I have days where I am just NOT feeling it.
It's a beautiful Sunday morning and I slept 10 hours last night. I feel human again! Just a little update on the blog - I've added a subscriber link and would love for my fans to sign up. You get first dibs on any post and I'll be sending out weekly inspirational tips. 🙂 Now,… Continue reading I Am Not a Feather
"I'm better at _______." ""You're not as good as me at ________." Both statements that I cringe to when I hear them come out of my daughters mouth. Don't get me wrong, she is incredibly thoughtful, caring, gentle and sweet - but sometimes, like any 9 year old, she can be brutally honest/downright nasty, or… Continue reading When Teaching Humility To Your Child Humbles You
I was having a lovely conversation with an acquaintance when I happened to mention my blog. She asked me what it was about and I replied, "Divorce and Being a Single Mom." Then she made a statement. One that left me at a loss for words. "But you're not a single mom, he's involved and… Continue reading Single Mom’s Verses Single Mom’s: Apparently Controversial
I've created a list of dating tips following any breakup, separation or divorce. Stuff I learned the hard way. You probably won't listen if you're a stubborn ass hot mess like I was, but I'll list it anyway. 11 Dating Tips Following Separation: Go On The Date: I heard somewhere that you should wait 2… Continue reading 11 Dating Tips: Breakup, Separation or Divorce
I was sitting in a fast food restaurant, having lunch with my daughter after a day of shopping, when my then 7 year old nonchalantly asked, "I wonder why daddy picked her over you?" In a split second my chest tightened and I fought to hide back the tears. My head fogged up and I… Continue reading “I Wonder Why Daddy Picked Her Over You.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jTTNWpag6fI "When I'm with you, I'm standing with an army." Ellie Goulding The first time I heard this song was at a live concert. I was on a date, but in that moment I was immersed in so much love and gratitude for my dearest family and friends. My people. My army. Finding your Single Mom… Continue reading Single Mom Army
Thank God It's My Every Other Friday. You know the one I'm talking about. The one where dad shows up to scoop up the kid and you're left in sweet, blissful silence. My pup Molly asleep at my feet, chamomile tea on my nightstand, City and Colour playing in the background. No where to be,… Continue reading Introverted Me: Every Other Weekend Bliss
Fast forward. She's 9 now. And guess what? Momma needs her space. Momma needs to breathe. Momma needs you to go to bed and stay there all night like they told me you would when you got older. It's like an 8pm Sundowner's Version of Children. Her whole personality changes. In fact, she shows off about 8 of them in a matter of minutes...
After my separation, I realized that I had alienated myself from relationships FOR me. I also realized that I alienated myself from experiences FOR me. If I wanted to go somewhere or do something and it wasn't kosher to HIM, then I didn't do it. I felt like as a family unit we had to do… Continue reading Identity Crisis
I'll be honest. I'm terrible at hosting sleepovers for my daughter. "We'll get them together next weekend. Wait, she's at her dad's next weekend, how about the weekend after?" Scheduling it is the hardest part. Then: who picks them up, who drops them off, should I clean the house first even though I know it'll… Continue reading The Joys of Giggles and Gossip