Category: Bipolar

Anxiety & Depression, Bipolar, chronic illness, Mental Illness, Uncategorized

Chronic Illness: Emotional Rollercoaster

“Grow through what you go through” “This is happening to you for a reason.  There is a greater purpose here.” “Sunshine comes to all those who feel the rain.” “You’ve survived 100% of your worst days.” “The comeback is always stronger than the setback.” How many times have you heard something similar?  Some feel good, …

Anxiety & Depression, Bipolar, chronic illness, ileostomy, inflammatory bowel disease

You Are Not Unloveable.  Just Wait.

I have Ulcerative Colitis, A Permanent Ileostomy, And Arthritis. I have Bipolar Disorder: Depression, Anxiety, Mood Swings. I am overweight. I am a single mom. Who in they’re right fucking mind would take a mess like that and love them to pieces?   I truly thought no one.  And if someone did show interest there …

Anxiety & Depression, Bipolar, Inspirational, Mental Health, Mental Illness

When Love Overrides Guilt and Shame

Today I went back to work. I was nervous.  There’s something about depression and it’s ability to twist and turn your thoughts into outlandish, negative distortions. I’ve always felt extreme guilt over being away while caring for myself.  My psychiatrist tells me “if you had diabetes and you were sick you would need to take …

Anxiety & Depression, Bipolar, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Parenting

When Momma Has An Eeyore Day

This week was tough. I fell into my first full depressive episode since I was diagnosed Bipolar II.  Being aware of what was happening and not being able to stop the cycle was frustrating to say the least. I’ve felt it coming for a couple weeks now, but was fighting against it. Monday was hard …

Anxiety & Depression, Bipolar, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Uncategorized

Bipolar II: It was more complicated than Major Depression

It’s been some time since I’ve sat down to write.  The last time I posted, I wrote about how I was slipping into another “funk”, but attempted to maintain some positivity and insight – trying to convince myself more than my readers. That particular “funk” turned into a Major Depressive Episode.  Not anything I haven’t …