It’s a beautiful Sunday morning and I slept 10 hours last night. I feel human again! Just a little update on the blog – I’ve added a subscriber link and would love for my fans to sign up. You get first dibs on any post and I’ll be sending out weekly inspirational tips. 🙂
Now, for why I’m really here. Lets talk about life.
You know that saying, “God will never give you more than you can handle?” He must really think I’m a rock star. Lets reflect on 2017:
My ex lost his job and I subsequently lost child support and insurance for my daughter
My daughter has been experiencing panic attacks and anxiety – which is directly related to a couple of asshole bullies she’s encountered at school.
My colo-rectal surgeon informed me that my rectum is not salvageable – which means the ileostomy that I planned on reversing will now forever be mine. Surgery scheduled for less than 2 weeks from now and I’ll be out of work 4-6 weeks.
My attempt at remaining positive and unaffected has failed miserably. I am affected. I am emotional. I feel so much weight on my shoulders and all I can do is keep on keeping on.
Here’s the thing though – I always thought when chaos was swirling around me like a tornado I had to succumb to the winds because they were always stronger than little ole me standing in the storm. But life has tested me, it has rocked my world and made me a strong woman.
I am not a feather. I am no longer moved by everything surrounding me.
I am an Oak Tree – my exterior may look damaged at times but my roots run deep, firmly planted with every single victory through adversity.
And that’s what I have to remind myself of, when I’m feeling vulnerable and weak – that I will get through this too. It doesn’t mean I have to hide my vulnerability. It doesn’t mean I have to pretend like everything is ok. It just means that somewhere, deep within, I know that I am going to find a blessing in all of this. I’ll wait for it. I’ll have faith.
Sunday Blessings to you.
One Flawsome Momma