I have been to weight loss clinics and had consultations for weight loss surgery, but not only did my insurance not cover the surgery, the dietician at the weight loss clinic told me I wasn’t a candidate for the program because of two things: the medications are contraindicated for someone with Bipolar and can cause… Continue reading Ground Zero: My Weight Loss Journey Day One
I was excited to go to a new park that I have never been to with my boyfriend. I haven’t really gotten out of the house much in the last six months. Chalk it up to both mental health and laziness. Take your pick. I grabbed my new black tennis shoes, but not the lace… Continue reading I Cannot Tie My Shoes: And Other Woes of Obesity
Boundaries. The word that gets thrown around like confetti. Even from those who you should actually be setting boundaries with. Now that’s ironic. Toxicity is something that I have known since the minute I took my first breath. Breed into it like some warrior princess or some shit like that. Toxicity and elasticity rhyme. That’s… Continue reading Complex-PTSD and Boundaries
*Anonymous Post from a Friend* What you are about to read is a story of a friend. Christians may appreciate this, and to my secular friends... stay with me. This is a worthy story needing to be shared. While I could never again subscribe to Christianity, I do appreciate what the Bible is, and has… Continue reading Compassion To The Undeserving: One Woman’s Story
Gratefulness It’s a word that is tossed around a lot around this time of year. It’s Thanksgiving, the time of thanks. Traditions around the dinner table may include saying something you’re grateful for, praying about your thankfulness, or sometimes in my family we put up paper on the walls for everyone to write down what… Continue reading Gratefulness: Happy Thanksgiving 2020
Have you ever held something in your grip so hard that it hurts? Remember as a kid and having the last piece of candy and your brother or sister tries to snatch it out of your hand so you close your grip as hard as possible, you might even swat back at them. “No, it’s… Continue reading Does Holding On Make Us Strong?
Today is November the 13th. Or more specifically, Friday the 13th, of what will one day become “the infamous 2020”. It should be a day of bad juju, but instead it is the first day of the rest of my life. That sounds so damn cliche, but it truly does feel that way. Jordan saw… Continue reading Friday The Thirteenth: No Bad JuJu
Sept 23, 2020 I have been stuck in a weird place. I want to write, but I am not sure what I want to write about. I have always wanted to write a book. It is a dream of mine. Not so sure that will ever really happen. What I do know is that today… Continue reading F*** Hump Day
September 25, 2017 “Grow through what you go through.” “This is happening to you for a reason. There is a greater purpose here.” “Sunshine comes to all those who feel the rain.” “You’ve survived 100 percent of your worst days.” “The comeback is always stronger than the setback.” How many times have you heard something… Continue reading Today I Don’t Need Feel-Good Quotes for My Illness
August 9, 2017 This week was tough. I fell into my first full depressive episode since I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder. Being aware of what was happening and not being able to stop the cycle was frustrating to say the least. I have felt it coming for a couple of weeks now, but I… Continue reading To the Mommas With Mental Illness Having a Tough Day, Week or Month
July 7, 2017 “There’s this person inside my head. She’s brilliant, capable. She’s me, only so much better. And I’m afraid I will never become this person.” — Meredith Grey, “Grey’s Anatomy.” This hit home for me tonight… I’m laying in bed, still slightly lethargic from my latest depression and new medication addition. But, in my head, are finally-clearing thoughts… Continue reading When You Feel Held Back From Greatness by Your Mental Illness
I woke up this morning and scrolled my facebook feed... Apparently today, March 8th, is International Women's Day. So, I walk outside and proudly announce to my mom, "It's International Women's Day!" Mom, "Cool. What's that?" Me, "Well.... I don't really know, but I'm a woman so I felt the need to share." To be… Continue reading International Women’s Day: Women are invested in Human Rights, which includes Women, but should be inclusive for ALL.
My heart is bursting at the seams. So full of joy its hardly containable. It radiates through me... the smile on my face, the light in my eyes, the laughter in my voice, the calm in my soul. You captivate me. Motivate me. Inspire me. My insecurities are laid to rest, and doubt dissipates with… Continue reading Midnight Ramblings of a Lady in Love
Nurses are taught from the very beginning that the most important aspect of our job is advocating for our patients. In reflection of my experiences on both sides of the spectrum, I would like to shed some insight and advice for those navigating the healthcare field. Ask Questions. Healthcare providers are rushed. Many times they… Continue reading Nurse and Patient: Perspectives from both sides of the spectrum
Less than 24 hours before I'm in the operating room. After 7 years of ups and downs with Ulcerative Colitis my story is finally coming to an end. I had hoped after the last surgery that my ileostomy would be reversed and I would be able to be "normal" again, but unfortunately my body had… Continue reading Grief, Gratitude and Grace: On Chronic Illness
Listen, I have a confession to make. I am sometimes a lazy mom.
Introverted personality combined with anxiety and depression and chronic illness have made me more than exhausted or wore down at times. Even at my healthiest I have days where I am just NOT feeling it.
It's a beautiful Sunday morning and I slept 10 hours last night. I feel human again! Just a little update on the blog - I've added a subscriber link and would love for my fans to sign up. You get first dibs on any post and I'll be sending out weekly inspirational tips. 🙂 Now,… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: I Am Not a Feather
"I'm better at _______." ""You're not as good as me at ________." Both statements that I cringe to when I hear them come out of my daughters mouth. Don't get me wrong, she is incredibly thoughtful, caring, gentle and sweet - but sometimes, like any 9 year old, she can be brutally honest/downright nasty, or… Continue reading How I Became a More Humble Mother in One Summer
Six weeks after my separation I created a dating profile on Plenty of Fish. I mean, damn, if he could do it while we were married then I could do it after the split, right? I went on my first date and we immediately hit it off. This man was handsome, charming, and funny. We very… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: 11 Post Separation Dating Tips
I was sitting in a fast food restaurant, having lunch with my daughter after a day of shopping, when my then 7 year old nonchalantly asked, "I wonder why daddy picked her over you?" In a split second my chest tightened and I fought to hide back the tears. My head fogged up and I… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: “I Wonder Why Daddy Picked Her Over You.”