Gratefulness It’s a word that is tossed around a lot around this time of year. It’s Thanksgiving, the time of thanks. Traditions around the dinner table may include saying something you’re grateful for, praying about your thankfulness, or sometimes in my family we put up paper on the walls for everyone to write down what… Continue reading Gratefulness: Happy Thanksgiving 2020
Have you ever held something in your grip so hard that it hurts? Remember as a kid and having the last piece of candy and your brother or sister tries to snatch it out of your hand so you close your grip as hard as possible, you might even swat back at them. “No, it’s… Continue reading Does Holding On Make Us Strong?
Today is November the 13th. Or more specifically, Friday the 13th, of what will one day become “the infamous 2020”. It should be a day of bad juju, but instead it is the first day of the rest of my life. That sounds so damn cliche, but it truly does feel that way. Jordan saw… Continue reading Friday The Thirteenth: No Bad JuJu
Sept 23, 2020 I have been stuck in a weird place. I want to write, but I am not sure what I want to write about. I have always wanted to write a book. It is a dream of mine. Not so sure that will ever really happen. What I do know is that today… Continue reading F*** Hump Day
September 25, 2017 “Grow through what you go through.” “This is happening to you for a reason. There is a greater purpose here.” “Sunshine comes to all those who feel the rain.” “You’ve survived 100 percent of your worst days.” “The comeback is always stronger than the setback.” How many times have you heard something… Continue reading Today I Don’t Need Feel-Good Quotes for My Illness
August 9, 2017 This week was tough. I fell into my first full depressive episode since I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder. Being aware of what was happening and not being able to stop the cycle was frustrating to say the least. I have felt it coming for a couple of weeks now, but I… Continue reading To the Mommas With Mental Illness Having a Tough Day, Week or Month
July 7, 2017 “There’s this person inside my head. She’s brilliant, capable. She’s me, only so much better. And I’m afraid I will never become this person.” — Meredith Grey, “Grey’s Anatomy.” This hit home for me tonight… I’m laying in bed, still slightly lethargic from my latest depression and new medication addition. But, in my head, are finally-clearing thoughts… Continue reading When You Feel Held Back From Greatness by Your Mental Illness
I woke up this morning and scrolled my facebook feed... Apparently today, March 8th, is International Women's Day. So, I walk outside and proudly announce to my mom, "It's International Women's Day!" Mom, "Cool. What's that?" Me, "Well.... I don't really know, but I'm a woman so I felt the need to share." To be… Continue reading International Women’s Day: Women are invested in Human Rights, which includes Women, but should be inclusive for ALL.
My heart is bursting at the seams. So full of joy its hardly containable. It radiates through me... the smile on my face, the light in my eyes, the laughter in my voice, the calm in my soul. You captivate me. Motivate me. Inspire me. My insecurities are laid to rest, and doubt dissipates with… Continue reading Midnight Ramblings of a Lady in Love
Nurses are taught from the very beginning that the most important aspect of our job is advocating for our patients. In reflection of my experiences on both sides of the spectrum, I would like to shed some insight and advice for those navigating the healthcare field. Ask Questions. Healthcare providers are rushed. Many times they… Continue reading Nurse and Patient: Perspectives from both sides of the spectrum
Less than 24 hours before I'm in the operating room. After 7 years of ups and downs with Ulcerative Colitis my story is finally coming to an end. I had hoped after the last surgery that my ileostomy would be reversed and I would be able to be "normal" again, but unfortunately my body had… Continue reading Grief, Gratitude and Grace: On Chronic Illness
Listen, I have a confession to make. I am sometimes a lazy mom.
Introverted personality combined with anxiety and depression and chronic illness have made me more than exhausted or wore down at times. Even at my healthiest I have days where I am just NOT feeling it.
It's a beautiful Sunday morning and I slept 10 hours last night. I feel human again! Just a little update on the blog - I've added a subscriber link and would love for my fans to sign up. You get first dibs on any post and I'll be sending out weekly inspirational tips. 🙂 Now,… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: I Am Not a Feather
"I'm better at _______." ""You're not as good as me at ________." Both statements that I cringe to when I hear them come out of my daughters mouth. Don't get me wrong, she is incredibly thoughtful, caring, gentle and sweet - but sometimes, like any 9 year old, she can be brutally honest/downright nasty, or… Continue reading How I Became a More Humble Mother in One Summer
Six weeks after my separation I created a dating profile on Plenty of Fish. I mean, damn, if he could do it while we were married then I could do it after the split, right? I went on my first date and we immediately hit it off. This man was handsome, charming, and funny. We very… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: 11 Post Separation Dating Tips
I was sitting in a fast food restaurant, having lunch with my daughter after a day of shopping, when my then 7 year old nonchalantly asked, "I wonder why daddy picked her over you?" In a split second my chest tightened and I fought to hide back the tears. My head fogged up and I… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: “I Wonder Why Daddy Picked Her Over You.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jTTNWpag6fI "When I'm with you, I'm standing with an army." Ellie Goulding The first time I heard this song was at a live concert. I was on a date, but in that moment I was immersed in so much love and gratitude for my dearest family and friends. My people. My army. Finding your Single Mom… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: Single Mom Army
Thank God It's My Every Other Friday. You know the one I'm talking about. The one where dad shows up to scoop up the kid and you're left in sweet, serene silence. My pup Molly asleep at my feet, chamomile tea on my nightstand, City and Colour radio on Pandora. No where to be, no… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: Introverted Me
Fast forward. She's 9 now. And guess what? Momma needs her space. Momma needs to breathe. Momma needs you to go to bed and stay there all night like they told me you would when you got older. It's like an 8pm Sundowner's Version of Children. Her whole personality changes. In fact, she shows off about 8 of them in a matter of minutes...
After my separation, I realized that I had alienated myself from relationships FOR me. I also realized that I alienated myself from experiences FOR me. If I wanted to go somewhere or do something and it wasn't kosher to HIM, then I didn't do it. I felt like as a family unit we had to do… Continue reading One Flawsome Momma: Identity Crisis